Like Wine

I had my last history class today. This one I am going to miss. My professor was excellent. I will classify him as one of the better teachers I've had. Ever. And that's not an easy category to get into. I've had professors and I've had teachers, but the ones that make it into my Best Teacher category have actually taught me something significant, beyond the subject matter. Not only did he teach me how to teach history, he taught me how to make something I love engaging, fun, exciting and creative. That's not to say I wouldn't have figured it out while in the field, but getting to practice those skills with my peers, getting to test things out and laugh and just talk was fantastic. Not to mention that I like him as a person as well. I can usually separate the two, but all the teachers I've loved have been people I've liked. I can respect the job, but it's even better if I can respect the person doing it.

Other than that, frankly, I have no idea where the day went.

I got some good news that I'll discuss in greater detail when I'm more awake. I'm slowly forming a plan for my future. I got a call about two great job opportunities for the summer. The book I ordered on Amazon.ca two days ago got here. God Amazon is amazing. I even got some writing done! All in all, things are looking up. I don't like the "light at the end of the tunnel" expression because I always think of "heading into the light" as in dying. And then that makes me think of Alanis Morissette's song "Ironic" in which a man gets on a plane for the first time and it crashes. That would be my luck. But like I said, today was good!

As BEd is wrapping up, I'm feeling more and more like myself again. I've missed me. Not that I've been a totally different person over the last year, but maybe just... more reserved, more pessimistic, more stressed, more withdrawn. Typical depressive/anxious symptoms. Like certain wines, this year was not my best. I learned a lot, I'm glad I stuck it out. I know I'll use everything I learned at some point in my life, but I have a sense that I'll be using it on my own terms, in a manner that differs from how many of my peers will use it. It still remains to be seen. Education is never wasted. It just feels like the money we spend on it is.

Lauren.